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Ive lost interest in novels, korean dramas, and love songs..they are just so annoying...they are just a bucnh of stuff which bored me to death...at least these past few months...i bought 2 new books which arent even half read...."mary stay out all night"....u wait till i have time for you...."love songs"...ok at least i still love them the same...

I dont know what interest me anymore....i guess none....

I was bloghopping from one unknown blog to another unknown blog, just to see what i havent see somewhere around the world, and i stumbled upon a blog which is full of craps...of course not for the writer...but I just hate posts which talks alot about love...how love sucksss....and how they rewrite quote about love....bla bla bla...they are definitely living with love and in love...but then they she said love sucks...what do you mean? sudah lah kamu....

Yeah I know....there are ups and downs....but...life...is it all about love?

Love is not a rocket science...they are so simple...but it is so complicated because human being made it complicated...so love is complicated...;p Our feeling is complicated....our emotion made us complicated...

I know it is very important...but...I just hate reading about it...so cheesy, and it gives me goosebump ha ha... thats a first....ha ha...

Id talked alot about love before...but I never get goosebump...i love talking about love...it is so mindblowing...yet nowadays...it gives me goosebump...OMG...theres something wrong with me...Im so weird...

P.s. where have all the magic and sparks gone....

Oh no wonder, its february....

Some people are just plain mean regardless what life teach them...

And think that they are the best...

Life teach us to be strong not to be mean!

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Pickles By Brian Crane

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Sometimes,
i wonder whether someone, that someone dearest , stay,
because he loves, or just to kill time, or maybe, just maybe, trying to get things...


I am a fool...

or maybe it is just my stupid instinct...

either way....i am foolish to feel the way i feel...
because, thinking too much is just one of my problem...
and it never solves my confused mind...

and my insecurity might just cause me a great loss...

Goodbyes always makes me wanna cry

I never like goodbyes..

It leaves me empty everytime..

Though I've been through it countless time...the feeling of emptiness never lessen...it feels the same everytime...

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Goodness me!!

O.M.G. its already May...And what have I done so farr....argghhh...

....HeYYY !~!!! TIMEEE !! chilllexxx la timeee.....dont go so fast.....damn....U making me NERVOUSSS!

Been bloghoping, and OMG.OMG. there are alottt of interesting people out there...with interesting talenttt....with i-want-that-talent-too-wtf TALENT....so green with envy...but no la....Im not that kind of person who gets envy easily ...just ...jealousss....(oo are they the same thing, i dont know...) okay... okay...

THEY ARE SO FUC-___-KING INTERESTING...Makes me feel so little in my own wide world...

But thanks to them they inspires mee...these are the kind of people I looked up to, that I respect....I know what I want...I just dont know that is WHAT I WANT....BUT MONEY DISTRACTING MEEE owhhh and the lack of self-belieff.....damn....

Anywayy....the conclusion iss.... ITS FUC^,^KING MAY already!!!

Some one Out There...

I hope so much that this would be our song...
~.~ but no, its not our song... and of course when there is no 'our'...there is no us...



Feels like everything coming back to me, again,
deja vu...DEJA VU...deja vu...

alot in common....yet different people, different character, different kind of situation...different places,

so much different....so much in common

its different, but its the same line of story......

and the only one that remain the same all the time is me...
Im standing in the middle of all these...and Im going round and round and round at the same place.... yet no one really come and save me....

im here...
they are there...

they are out of reach...~~

Im tired of reaching out for some one who isnt really there to catch me...

Britanny Murphy dead at 32...

I was sooo surprisedd when I read the yahoo headline...

Yet another one of our favorite actress gone too soon...

Afraid of what

Being away from home makes me feel homesick everyday...
so i decided to write more about the past...it feels closer to home...
of course i will talk alot about the present...and occassionally about the future...

But now I need to do something else first...

But I dont know how...

Im jussttt toooo afraid...

I always feel Im not good enough...to everyone...
sometimes i think i am being tooo hard on myself...
but i couldnt control this emotion that slowly lurking into my life...

What am i sooo afraid of ?

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If u take things for granted...and never appreciate anything i guess you should listen to her story... and every mothers should read her blog for an inspiration...Stephenie is one strong person....

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As an aunt for my nephews and nieces....I for one is a lazy aunt...taking things for granted and never appreciate every moment with them...and believe me...I love the kidss so muchhh...but i feel empty because I have alot of thingss to achieve yet Im going no where...and the reason is solely because of my own lack of action...and so I focus myself thinking about what i want rather then what is in front of me...

My HuHa of the day...

well u just have to endure this entry...bcause this is supposely an ANGRY entry from me...

I decided to write down in here...just ...because...i cannot sleep last night thinking of this...ya true...not until 5am...or slightly over 5am....

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a few years ago...like way way before I finished my highschool...There was this guy/boy...no...im nt telling his name...to put his name in my blog is an honour to him...well...who wants to give him credit when he doenst deserve it...nanti dia ckp...

"got someone talk abt me lehh..."

no he dun deserve that...whether its abt a good thing or bad thing...he should be ignoreeeed instead...he was one of the toxic ppl that crossed my life...and i will never forget this...no matter how small his ksalahan was towards me...

that day...when the teacher passed the biology paper to us...i got a quite OK marks...actually compared to the others my marks was quite good nt excellent of course...but u have to remember....almost all of the students got 20marks below...or was it 10marks? school just started, so the only excuse for that was...maybe they didnt prepared for the exam...


U see he never realllyyy talk to me...neither did i care...because at that time...i have a lot of friends whom i could talk to....Chinese Indian Bumiputra...alll....

of alll the time, he chose that particular day to talk to me....he saw my marks...


"wahhh!! tiruhh kaa....", with his chinese accent .


Lyk WHAT THE HELL!!! steadyyyyyyy sj dia ckp...he just de-motivate me.....I was SOOOOO DAMNNNN ANGRYYYY.....like i can kick him out of this planet earth if only he said another word....i succeed in behaving myself....

Somehow i cannot take any negative criticism that time...if that happens today...i will definitely crush his self-confidence and self-esteem...until he got none....but what can a girl do right...the only thing that i can do that time is to ignore whatever thing he said...and tried my best to delete that critic from my head....I still have fragile self-esteem and fragile self-confidence...

My imagination just ran wild last night....*i want to punch his left eye, and pinch both his nipples and kick his crouch with all the energy i have...and kick him some more....until he reach planet MARS with his 9 marks paper....owhhh pooorrrr XXX...*


And recently, heard about him and his CN-friends-ony-w-d-exception-of-non-CN-models...he claimed himself to "only dates models"....like HA!!HA!!HA!!*sarcastically*...why ohhh???? ...this must be the "beauty and the skinny-beast" case...he's soo skinnyyy....and very tall...and sooooo-nottt-cuteee.....i tell u...he's not cute...like...u dont want to walk the same path he walks...

sad girll...she shud be thankful for a great career like modelling....at least she can offer all her time to her career instead of listening to his negative remarks....


*sigh*


enough for today...i think i started to become that bitter lady already....and i hate it...

until then people...

=(((((((((((

I almost lost my blog for beingg tooo adventurous....

DAMNNNN.....

i almost give up....

*AT WITS END*

"I fed up,
with the same question over and over again...
when i didnt answer...its because im not telling u anytime soon..."

"understand or not?!
get the hint strangers!!"

: Cryinggg outtt Louuddd :

Damn !!
what happen with the image uploader?.....

i was unable to upload pictures...

And that explain y i was in silence mode this past few days...

Because all the entry that i planned to blog have to do something with pictures that i wanted to upload....

ARgGGgghhhh!!!

what should i do what should i doooo.....huhu....=((


Gila eh!

Sometimes....

Sometimes,

It hurts so bad that you just want to forget everything...

But the more you try the more difficult to let go....

The more you want to forget, the more it haunts you...

Sometimes,

you just have to pretend that everything is alright...

And in time it will fade away...and the nightmare will stop.