Tuesday 3 March 2009

near to you...a fine frenzy

he and I had something beautiful|but so dysfunctional, it couldn't last|I loved him so but I let him go|'cause I knew he'd never love me back|such pain as this|shouldn't have to be experienced|I'm still reeling from the loss, |still a little bit delirious|near to you, I am healing|but it's taking so long|'cause though he's gone |and you are wonderful|it's hard to move on|yet, I'm better near to you.|you and I have something different|and I'm enjoying it cautiously|I'm battle scarred,|but I am working oh so hard|to get back to who I used to be....|



he's disappearing, fading steadily|well, I'm so close to being yours, |won't you stay with me, please|near to you, I am healing|but it's taking so long|'cause though he's gone|and you are wonderful|it's hard to move on|yet, I'm better near to you|I only know that |I am better where you are|I only know that |I am better where you are|I only know that I belong |where you are|near to you, I am healing|but it's taking so long|'cause though he's gone|and you are wonderful|it's hard to move on|yet, I'm better near to you|

p.s.Somehow, this song remind me of bella and jacob...=)

My HuHa of the day...

well u just have to endure this entry...bcause this is supposely an ANGRY entry from me...

I decided to write down in here...just ...because...i cannot sleep last night thinking of this...ya true...not until 5am...or slightly over 5am....

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a few years ago...like way way before I finished my highschool...There was this guy/boy...no...im nt telling his name...to put his name in my blog is an honour to him...well...who wants to give him credit when he doenst deserve it...nanti dia ckp...
"got someone talk abt me lehh..."
no he dun deserve that...whether its abt a good thing or bad thing...he should be ignoreeeed instead...he was one of the toxic ppl that crossed my life...and i will never forget this...no matter how small his ksalahan was towards me...

that day...when the teacher passed the biology paper to us...i got a quite OK marks...actually compared to the others my marks was quite good nt excellent of course...but u have to remember....almost all of the students got 20marks below...or was it 10marks? school just started, so the only excuse for that was...maybe they didnt prepared for the exam...


U see he never realllyyy talk to me...neither did i care...because at that time...i have a lot of friends whom i could talk to....Chinese Indian Bumiputra...alll....

of alll the time, he chose that particular day to talk to me....he saw my marks...


"wahhh!! tiruhh kaa....", with his chinese accent .


Lyk WHAT THE HELL!!! steadyyyyyyy sj dia ckp...he just de-motivate me.....I was SOOOOO DAMNNNN ANGRYYYY.....like i can kick him out of this planet earth if only he said another word....i succeed in behaving myself....

Somehow i cannot take any negative criticism that time...if that happens today...i will definitely crush his self-confidence and self-esteem...until he got none....but what can a girl do right...the only thing that i can do that time is to ignore whatever thing he said...and tried my best to delete that critic from my head....I still have fragile self-esteem and fragile self-confidence...

My imagination just ran wild last night....*i want to punch his left eye, and pinch both his nipples and kick his crouch with all the energy i have...and kick him some more....until he reach planet MARS with his 9 marks paper....owhhh pooorrrr XXX...*


And recently, heard about him and his CN-friends-ony-w-d-exception-of-non-CN-models...he claimed himself to "only dates models"....like HA!!HA!!HA!!*sarcastically*...why ohhh???? ...this must be the "beauty and the skinny-beast" case...he's soo skinnyyy....and very tall...and sooooo-nottt-cuteee.....i tell u...he's not cute...like...u dont want to walk the same path he walks...

sad girll...she shud be thankful for a great career like modelling....at least she can offer all her time to her career instead of listening to his negative remarks....


*sigh*


enough for today...i think i started to become that bitter lady already....and i hate it...

until then people...


Monday 2 March 2009

Assorted Links and Notes

1. Trojan Football Analysis has some great stuff about Nebraska's mid-1990s running game. Check it out here, and here. Highly recommended.

2. Michael of the Braves & Birds sports blog and EDSBS respond to my analysis of risky and conservative stragies for underdogs and favorites. Both make good points, particularly regarding whether Spurrier was a good example of a favorite who overplayed his hand. I can't say I disagree; I think there are certain games where Spurrier overplayed his hand but I didn't mean to say that all losses were his fault for being too aggressive (and yes, the defense was awful some of those years). Briefly though, some of the interesting comments mentioned that a corrollary to my point is that underdogs also ought to shorten the game -- high variance is smoothed out by a lot of trials. So an underdog wants to get the game going, be aggressive early, and get the hell out of there if the luck bounces their way. It's the Vegas-principle: if the odds are against you, and you keep playing, the House (i.e. the Big House, or maybe the Swamp, or some other location) will win.

Now, what makes that interesting is that being aggressive often means passing more which can also extend the game with clock stoppages. (Though the newish clock rules still confound me.) Finally, some commenters pointed out that it's a bit nebulous how much this applies to slight underdogs or favorites, like when Florida plays a mid-level SEC school. My sense is that the underdog should still be aggressive from the start, but if they get a lead that vastly changes the probabilities and, as a result, the strategy. (If the Citadel gets up by 7 or 14 in the first quarter they are still likely to lose if you factor in talent.) But all that will have to be fleshed out in the future. Glad that the post sparked some thought.

3. Michael Weinreb of ESPN Page 2 has chimed in on the recent decision to ban the A-11 offense. His verdict? The ban stifles "progress," which goes essentially undefined. Let's hear from Weinreb as to why:

Given the media attention this thing has gotten, it would not surprise me if there is an element of jealousy involved. But I do think this is about something bigger, something more than merely a single bylaw, or even a single offense. (Otherwise, isn't any sort of motion or play-action or halfback pass also inherently "deceptive"?) This is about progress, and what it means for the future of football, and there are certain officials on that rules committee who apparently have a sincere concern that offenses like the A-11 -- offenses that spread the field to its edges -- will, indeed, ruin football as we know it.


Needless to say, I think this syrupy salvo a tad overwrought. But, hey, I must think that the spread isn't real football to believe that, right?
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