Afraid of what

Being away from home makes me feel homesick everyday...
so i decided to write more about the past...it feels closer to home...
of course i will talk alot about the present...and occassionally about the future...

But now I need to do something else first...

But I dont know how...

Im jussttt toooo afraid...

I always feel Im not good enough...to everyone...
sometimes i think i am being tooo hard on myself...
but i couldnt control this emotion that slowly lurking into my life...

What am i sooo afraid of ?